Few Sprinkles off the Top

So Saturday marked the end of week one.  I wanted to get on the scale and yet had this inner fear to do so.  I reasoned that I had stuck to my diet and did the things I was supposed to do, so it should be ok.  But I feared the disappointment of not seeing any change or (gasp) an increase.  To my relief when I looked down at my feet the scale showed a 6.7 pound weight loss!  Elation!!  

I had to look inside a bit following the weigh in to figure out why I was so worried.  And this is what I concluded.  Diets are not guarantees.  They are tools to get us where we want to be.  There is no magic solution to losing weight other than consistency and work.  But this week did not feel like work at all.  I was surprised to see how much energy I had this week too.  That doesn't happen on a diet!  No sugar, very little caffeine, I mean how is that possible?  

So yay, I am down weight wise and I am feeling great.  I found the key...until this weekend.  This weekend proved to really be tough for me.  

Never would I have described myself as an emotional eater.  I think that unfairly my mind is drawn to a poor unfortunate soul who is depressed and locked away in their house when I think of emotional eating, but I totally proved myself wrong!  

As everyone does, I have been going through a lot of emotional trials and difficult situations and this weekend they all just seemed to land square in my lap.  A donut...oh my word, I wanted a donut SO BAD, and french fries, oh and Doritos too.  I really was so happy that my house was free of all of those items.  BUT I did have to do my grocery shopping which brought me within a couple bucks to all those items.  I sat in my car before going into the store and went over my WHY.  Why am I doing this, why is it important and why do I want to be back to square one.  I can say I was a perfect angel shopping.  I didn't even buy the yummy stuff for my kids.  haha Angel I tell you!  I bought the largest water that I could and drank it while I shopped.  But it was a huge eye opener!  How many times had I done this without even questioning?  And honestly I think that all those problems on my lap would have weighed more if a donut was on top. 

I am relieved to have survived the weekend!  I guess what I want to leave with is this, no matter how difficult the moment was, it passed!  And the joy that I have inside for having averted diet disaster is real.  Find your WHY.  Make it real and worth fighting for!  And for goodness sake, trust in yourself, know that if you put in the effort, good things will come from it.